Sunday, January 29, 2012

The name is Little

One week away from the half-way mark and I feel I need to blog what my Little has done with me so far...along with some other random thoughts.

In October, Little ran a marathon. The Portland Marathon. Now, Little was little and no one knew Little was there (well, God did I suppose!). But I'm happy to say we did the longest, hardest thing I've ever done, together. We sat on the couch for what seemed like days on end. We turned 30...well, I turned 30 but whatever. We got flipped off together because mommy drives too fast and aggressively but she'll tell you that what she did does not deserve the bird! Little does Zumba 2-3 times a week and it's not yet known if Little appreciates it or not. And just yesterday Little went snowshoeing with Ali and Jen for a glorious and peaceful hour and a half. I am pleased and excited for all the other adventures we'll manage while Little is carted around like the cute little freeloader Little is.

Next on the list is beginning a vigorous training regimen for Bloomsday. Sarcasm. Did you hear it? Sarcasm because my vigorous training will consist of WALKING. Little's first Bloomsday will be May 2012 and I have every ambitious intention of finishing while wearing an obnoxious belly outfit and spandex.

Random thoughts:
Because I don't like to get ahead of myself in reading about what to expect when I'm expecting, I'll find oddities and curiosities that send me reeling towards the What to Expect book. Like the other day, I had myself convinced that I must have forgotten...many, many times...to wash my armpits because they have turned a strange darkish color. Gross, right? Well, apparently normal. But now I'm afraid to let anyone see the darned things!

I am convinced that if I dance and sing, Little will have hopefully some sense of rhythm and singing abilities...I have not read this anywhere but I don't care...I will sing and I will dance and dang-it that Little better come out already knowing how to play guitar!

Confession:
I ran into a friend today who has a 3 month old and, since the topic of my maternity leave is fresh on my brain, I paid attention to how little and sweet her bundle was. My confession is, I'm a little bummed that I have to return to work so soon after. Not that I don't like to work, I just don't want to work so much. I'm afraid of missing out on things. I'm afraid of being that parent that's never there...and it's hard for me to not be sad about it. But we have a small business that pays pennies yet brings Bobby so much joy. And I am the breadwinner so therefore I must go to work. My heart aches and secretly wishes for another way.


Sigh.



Friday, January 13, 2012

Week 17


 Week 16...I finally decided that my belly wasn't entirely my belly. I'll finally admit it's a little bit of baby!


Today marks the officially unofficial start of week 17. I haven't really posted much about this amazing thing growing in my belly for mostly two reasons...
First, nobody knew until about week 10... that's a pretty long time to go without 'venting' into a blog...but then, my real journal saw just about the same action: zero! When I'm overwhelmed it's hard for me to relax and put my words to paper (or computer). Second, I'm in what they call the 'honeymoon' stage which means I feel absolutely amazingly normal except ill-fitting clothing. Which means I don't feel like much is happening...which makes it hard to post whats happening!

So here's a few more fun thoughts and realizations!
Last week I discovered what is called 'linea negro'...the line that runs from bellybutton to pelvis and even up towards your chest. Not everyone has this though as I have learned from discussions and the comical quick check of Nikki's belly in the middle of an antique store! Mine runs the whole span and I wonder if it will get darker? And why does it happen at all?

Today I tried 'sucking in my gut' to find my ab muscles to be sore as though I had just finished at the gym...a coworker quickly reminded me of muscles being stretched and what-not. Also, last night I rolled over on my belly to feel for the first time as though I was laying on something hard in my belly area. Strange, but neat for sure!

I'm still doing zumba three times a week and trying to figure one or two nights a week to dedicate to what my doctor calls a brisk walk, or slow jog...because I have been cleared for Bloomsday in May as long as my heart rate does not go over 140bpm. STOKED! Excited to show folks that being pregnant does not mean I'm disabled. Sometimes, some comments make me wonder if I should be subjected to a wheelchair and a crash helmet for the remainder of this adventure.

Bobby and I have started the house hunt! This helps me start to visualize the reality of a baby room thus directly causing a few purchases as well. Yay!



Thursday, January 5, 2012

5 thoughts before 9am

1.) Zumba just might be the closest I'll ever get to being a professional backup dancer.

2.) I own clothes that fit perfect while standing straight...but not bending over or sitting.

3.) Can sneezing too many times in a row (5+) cause you to faint, have a heart attack, or die?

4.) I wear my big, chunky hoop earrings because they make me feel more hip than I think I really am.

5.) driving in my car without a song to belt out to bums me out.

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

small quip



Last year I had a sort of epiphany: I had no goals. Actually, I do believe I'm always subconsciously working towards something but I had nothing I could pinpoint. So I made a goal...to run a marathon. I never ran a marathon before, or even a half marathon...but I was determined (somehow). And I did it (somehow).

The above quote is exactly how I felt about my lack of goals...so I will continue my goal setting. And this excites me.

First thing on my list? Bloomsday 2012. Why is this a significant goal? Because I will be 7 months prego and a goal like this would keep me moving! Now to purchase new running shoes...